Sunday, October 16, 2011

Mama's Back to Work

I went back to work full-time on Tuesday, Oct. 4.  I pretty much cried the whole morning at home getting ready.  I was fine when I dropped her off, basically because I didn't want Jayme our daycare mom to think I was crazy.  I wrote her a one-page note on what Aubrey does during the day, how often she eats, etc.  I wanted to write it down because I figured I would lose it when I dropped her off.  I cried the whole way to work and burst into tears when I walked into the office.  But, after a few hours it got easier.  It was nice to just be me for a while and not only Aubrey's mom. 

Most people find it easier as the days go on at work, but not me.  I am very jealous of Jayme as I want to be the one taking care of Aubrey.  It just isn't fair that moms have to work these days just to make ends meet.  Plus, I have to go back to Cashwise on a very part-time basis also.  After family health insurance and the daycare expense comes out of my check, I don't have much left over.  Like I said, not fair. 

On the bright side, Aubrey does very well at daycare.  It is a small home-based daycare and there are only 6 kids.  3 of them are girls, all 2 years old and born within 5 weeks of each other.  They are little mamas to Aubrey so I know she is very much loved!   It's funny because just last Tuesday Jayme was saying that Aubrey is such an awesome baby.  Then on Wednesday she said Aubrey screamed for 5 hours that day....well, if she's gonna be crabby i'm glad it's at daycare and not when she's home with me =) 

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